habitual excellence

'when virtue has slept, it will arise all the more vigorous'.

"Genuine honesty, assuming that this is our virtue and we cannot get rid of it, we free spirits – well then, we will want to work on it with all the love and malice at our disposal, and not get tired of ‘perfecting’ ourselves in our virtue, the only one we have left: may its glory come to rest like a gilded, blue evening glow of mockery over this aging culture and its dull and dismal seriousness!" Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil

That's all the heady material I have at my disposal today. It started off right, with an extremely strong cappuccino complete with a beautiful ratio of espresso to milk to froth. I outdid myself really. Yes, this trip to a Parisian cafe, courtesy yours truly. Okay, I can't take complete credit, Capresso was my crutch towards caffeinated divinity.

What am I reading right now? Apocalypse 2012. I went to the book store, in search of the perfect book. I've tired of the late 19th century classics. I'm not sure how this happened. I did a binge and purge? I am no longer interested in subtlety? All of those books say that society was SHOCKED by the lascivious nature of the book.....and I enjoy that. There's really no mention of sex, or seduction in them. But somehow these people smarter than me, even without the perfect cappuccino were able to pick up on these innuendos and emerge from it with mouth agape. "My! I do say." Maybe I just spent too many days in college picking my clothes off the floor of various gentleman's bedrooms. Just kidding dad.

Anyways, back to the imminent doom of if not 90% of the world's population, at least the Northern Hemisphere. I don't know. This book written by someone I've never heard of before, who has a myspace profile, and all of his "friends" are skanky, scantily clad females, (but I don't know, maybe they're selling cell phones or something), is pretty good. The scientific research is pretty thorough, and he does touch base on many factors that could lead to a rebirth of our civilization, including what is considered scientific fact as well as questionable prophecies and what have you.

I say bring it on. I'm kind of bored. Emerson said that all we need lies within us. I mean, sure. Yes, I believe that. But I also think that maybe our souls or the fibers of our beings and the cells as parts of this universe also react to fluctuating natural changes. It's sort of like how a woman's special time is in sync with the phases of the moon. Maybe our bodies CRAVE change and readjustment towards harmony with nature.

But I really don't care about all of that. I think it's time for the world to see some change. Mother Nature should kick some ass. Time for the Northern Hemisphere to be shrouded in a volcanic winter that results in the next ice age. I'm frightened and curious to see the reaction of humans during the inevitable crisis. I might start placing bets. GW is in a rocket in about 30 seconds. To wherever. Whatever strong hold they reserve for idiots.

In short...this is FASCINATING to me. And we have greatly underestimated our connection to the universe. I think that the flux between the sun and ourselves and the earth's naturally occurring processes are all interrelated, as perhaps scientists have known all a long. A sun storm encourages storms on earth, fluctuations in temperatures and radiation from the sun affects the earth as though it were a living being.

But anyways, I'm starting to sound like I'm on an acid trip, so I'm going to drop it. The high point of all of this of course is the fact that everything that seems petty or annoying is diminished somewhat. As I deal with people at work, and clients that come in with various "problems." They always have a problem, because they can afford to have problems. I just think to myself, It's okay, because the super volcano is going to erupt, or we are going to be pelted by waves of radiation from the sun, consequence an X45 sun storm. Which by the way, has only happened once in history, and if it had been directly aimed at us, there would have been some sizzling and frying.

At which point...those living off of the land will probably survive. And the rest of us, distracted and misguided by all the extra shit will be useless.

You may want to rethink how you treat hispanic delivery men, because there's a good chance you'll be asking Juan if you can stay at his grandparent's house in South America.

Speaking of hispanic men. This morning I was waiting for the bus and I saw the old man I see every day. He's always whistling some creepy little tune, and he always stops in front of me to say hello. So this morning, he walks past again, says hello, and then comes back for another round to which it proceeds as follows:

Old man: "I sorry to interrupt your reading."

Me: "That's okay."

Old man: "But I love you."

Me: "uhhhh. Thank you" (Which is my usual reply to that statement).

Old man: "Maybe you love me too?"

Me: "Um, Maybe" (Trying to be polite).

Old man: "I come to see you every morning. I come back tomorrow morning to see you."

Me: (Thinking to myself), Time to rearrange my schedule.

I can't WAIT to be dismembered in his basement. Hopefully, the sun's velocity increases before 2012, before he finds out where I live.

That's all for today.

Much love and apocalypse.

hatin in 08

In lieu of a promised dedication to a very special friend, I'm going to be writing in observance of the holiday season, before the New Years tidings have long expired and it gets weird.

This post also in observance of my totally self-pitying, shitty mood tonight. It all began with getting out of bed. Rain was falling outside, you could hear it on the window sill, and the bedroom was shrouded in that perfect light that encourages sleep, or at least a lazy day in bed.

I contemplated "taking a personal day," but alas, I am up to my shit in shitty shit momentarily, not to be alleviated for several days.

Not even Hillary Clinton can solve this. It takes more than a village to raise my spirits Hill. By the way...her "choke up?" I can't even come to terms with it. Cannot. Were we all duped New Hampshire? What we need is a, "Political Campaign Tactics for Idiots" book to be published.

But I digress. What I really want to talk about is my hates for 2008, reflecting on 2007. Well, I will throw in some loves, but my sour mood won't allow for the happiness quota this evening.

Here we go:

1. Dear hipster girl that waits for the bus with me every morning. Stop staring at the rest of us in condescension and pity for our mediocre, conformist lifestyles. I get it. You listen to a band with the word dinosaur in its title, and the bassist dresses up like a robot! You still shop at Urban Outfitters, now go make me a latte.

2. People that melodramatically express their distaste with smokers. The hand wave in front of the face, the scrunched up expression of disgust, the pathetic "cough, cough." You're cramping my style.

3. Academics that over use the word "convoluted." Your use of the word convoluted is making me want to convolute you and shit.

4. Girls. Ladies. Bitches. Stop taking that girl group picture that you all take that looks exactly the same, consists of the same people, in which you all have the same expressions. We get it. You're wild and wacky! A quirky crazy bunch that lives for crazy girl power awesomeness and pictures where you're doing crazy wacky stuff that only you would do!! Can you at least be entertaining and wear shirts that detail the stds that each of you has?

5. Vampires. I still like them. Where are they?

6. Dear B61 bus. It is obviously VERY over between us.

7. John Mayer. I don't understand you. Perhaps I never will.

8. Harry Schwartz. I think that's your name. You're the president, director, master henchman, owner, general or whatever it is they call you of Starbucks. You made your employees work on Christmas Eve...and Christmas. My barista crush and I discussed this at length, for several days. He's the only reason I go to Starbucks. He says that it's 21st century slavery. And he's black, so he knows what he's talking about. Dear Mr. Schwartz. You're kind of an asshole to me now, while previously I had at least respected the fact that you provided good health insurance to your employees. I can't even imagine the type of person that goes to Starbucks on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. I bet they are all douchebags, dipshits, and assholes.

9. SIGH. Why do you go to a bookstore to talk on your damn cell phone? I am not in the poetry section to listen to your conversation to your friend about the date you went on, and how you're going to go to dinner again, and how he was gently chiding you in a flirtatious way about you were in his neighborhood and didn't even call him. First of all....maybe you didn't call him because he's a douchebag, but probably not because you just said you were going on another date with him...which is a big mistake. His oh so coy! tactic of making you feel like you were missed is boring to me. I'm done with him. You should find someone new.

10. Dear champion coffee. I love you. Your baristas are nice and slightly hipster but not in that obnoxious way. Also, one of you is from Wisconsin, and I can respect that. Your coffee really makes me feel better. The only person I don't like that works there is the curly haired guy that I heard arguing with the owner of the liquor store about wanting to return his already opened and half consumed bottle of wine. You are either exceptionally rude and deceitful, or just really dumb.

11. I love my bitches. Dear bitches near and far, you make my life complete. You are not feminine to a degree that makes me want to slice and dice you. If you are feminine, you are still reasonable. Despite your tendency towards appreciating blood, gore, death, hatred (that means you nichole), and general distaste for humanity, I know that you are good people that have my back no matter what.

12. Crap television, smut internet "research." I'm lumping this into one lovable category. I love crap TV, kitschy websites and really hilarious websites that don't mean to be. I love you. You are like a circle to me, no beginning and no end. I want people to stop saying, "kill your tv." There is a lot to learn. I promise. As long as you know that it's this crazy fun fantasy land of bull shit that brain washes people. Kudos to you Fox News. You make me laugh.

13. godhatesfags.com I hate you. I loathe you. I am sort of ashamed that you make me hate. But at the same time, it feels kind of funny to me. The antithesis of what any sort of higher power would teach is exactly what you are. Congrats. Thumbs up. Keep on a keepin.

14. This is sort of an ongoing pet peeve. Grammar nazis. Okay, if you're working on your thesis or dissertation....yes, it's time to call it out. Don't get me wrong, I'm just as off put when someone mistakes your for you're or its for it's or whatever. But give me a fucking break. You're not a Pulitzer prize winner. Get over yourself.

15. Swearing. I love it. Fill that swear jar up with quarters and dollars please. There is nothing like a swear word to really add a period to the end of a sentence or just...well, extend a lovely fuck you and fuck yourself and fuck it and .... It's almost as good as Vampires.

16. Dearest darling jobby job. You put wrinkles on my face this year. You've probably grayed my hairs, but I wouldn't know it, because it's been too many shades of pink to black to purple since 1999. I owe a premature death to you and the landmark.

17. Home sweet home. I don't want to leave your confines. Why would I go out there?

18. Karma. I believe in you. I can't wait for you to deliver the bitch slap x10 to those that need it.

19. Champagne. I love you. I want you now.

That's all I have for now. I may need to continue later. I have cocktails to concoct and voo doo dolls to stab.

SHITHEEL

We are bringing it back, by the suggestion of NMH. I had a discussion today, regarding the origin of the term "shitheel." I looked online, but I cannot find a definition that is satisfactory for my own purposes, so I am eliminating those options and just going with my own, as a spin-off of douchebaggery, with just a sprinkling of evil bastard. Less clueless than douchebag and dipshit, I think that shitheel is a tad more malicious that its cousins. Out of curiosity, I also did a google image search for shitheel, and this is what I found.

Keepin the little shitheel dry and warm!

Which leads me to believe, as was earlier discussed outside the confines of bloggington, that the term shitheel definitely originates with the emergence of canine domestication, and consequently, the emergence of shit, all over the place. Thus we find that the term shitheel is related to karma. As the people who are finding the shit on their heels kind of deserve it. But that's not really all that interesting.

So now let's talk about abortion. I was going to dedicate a singular glorious posting just for this topic, but I am so excited about it that I can't wait another day.

Point number 1: I LOVE abortion

I think it's a spectacular solution to a potentially catastrophic mistake. Insert here: GASP! But it's a CHILD not a MISTAKE!!! Oh, spare me. These words are most typically uttered by a white middle aged soccer mom that will never really be affected by the issue and if she is, it's because her daughter popped one out on the volley ball court after concealing it for 9 months. Some ladies find themselves pregnant with an "unwanted" child, because their school opted out on or couldn't afford sex education, so you thought that if you were on top you couldn't get preggoed. "Whatever shall I do?" Those afflicted with a surprise order of preggington special may ask themselves. Chippy Chuck, football team quarterback, is long gone. He is already screwing Zippy McBoobmaster and he doesn't even remember your name. When he sees you in the hallway at school, his only thought (which by the way results in his flunking mathematics), is: "That girl should lose some weight." Of course, I am relying upon stereotypes, and that is wrong, but oh so fun. So back to the story, you're lonely, you've caught the preggers, and you've got nowhere to turn but here:

This is a "Hanger Chrome Three." Which means that you're actually spoiling yourself. Girls in the ghetto have to use items such as this:

It doesn't have a schnazzy title, because it was constructed by your great grandmothers and grandfathers and forefathers and apes using discarded barbed-wire. So stop complaining. The Chrome Three is like the Waldorf Astoria of Abortions.

Anyways, I'm getting off topic. You will also need a lot of moonshine and a friend. The friend can be like the person that you would have at your wedding that makes sure that everything runs smoothly. But push all of those silly thoughts of marriage out of your head. You are tarnished, a spoiled woman, the rotten apple in a bushel of shiny ripe apples, and you probably won't live through what's about to happen anyways. Among other supplies that you will need are as follows:

Plastic bags, a lot of them, or just a few rolls of saran wrap. It's always good to have duct tape. A picture of Chip to get you through. Wear a skirt! And bring a bucket. But the best ingredient for your successful abortion? PASSION. You are lost without motivation and that get-em-go attitude!!!

SIGH. As I don't have anyone to bring the reigns in on me, I think I have to do it myself and say, you should abstain from sexual relations before marriage. Not only is it a sin in the eyes of god, but think about what all of your friends will say. However, I am going to go out on a limb and say that abstaining from sex IS another form of abortion. Think of all of the babies that died before they were even given a chance to be sperminated.

Next up: Rollerskates, why don't I have any?

Breaking News

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LOVE SURGE

As promised, today's discussion is entitled "love surge." At this point, I don't know why. Unfortunately, the love surge was perpetually challenged en route this morning, beginning with a harsh wake up call in the form of my alarm clock, cold winds, and a bitter commute across what I now fondly refer to as "that fucking bridge." Again, the bus is partially to blame for this.

Love Surge: My pillow, my warm bed, cozy times

Insert alarm clock here followed by wind, just enough rain to piss me off, and then finally, my favorite bus line, careening past me, leaving in its wake, also my path, also my face, a large gust of dirt, garbage and moisture. Which just made my surge of love crusade of the day go, er, "limp." This is when I turned on my i-pod. I didn't join the revolution until New York forced me to mind you, because it's times like the above described that everyone needs a pitiful soundtrack to accompany them. Also in the presence of the multiple pedophiles and insane folks I get to sit next to on the subway. ANYWAYS.



THEN MY I-POD WENT DEAD.



I was loving the world, and it was not loving me back. SO IT GOES.





Chin up little soldier. This day will improve with time.

On that note, I'm going to sign off, and leave you with a picture of my favorite place, Staten Island.

Next up: Afghan Hounds, Man's Best Friend?

The Three D's

Bush: "I love me some white folk!"

This evening, I was pondering the self proclaimed "three D's" those being: Denny's, Douchebags, and Dipshits. I was thinking about how I'd really enjoy sitting at a Denny's restaurant for an entire night or entire day, indulging in several cups of watered down coffee while surrounded by truck drivers, crass waitstaff and drunkards. (Maybe there should be four D's). Awhile back, I wrote a "rant" about New York City, inspired by my hatred for its coffee shops. If indeed you can actually define them by what we traditionally consider a coffee shop; a place where one can read, relax, drink coffee, work...et cetera. Coffee shops in New York should actually be incorporated into the modern version of Dante's Inferno, quite possibly as the previously unknown 10th ring of hell. Okay, so let's blame Manhattan, rather than the entire state of New York, or just the city. But I will list the factors that equate to fire and brimstone as follows:

Please leave these at home:

And get off your:

You are not a:

I would also like to ask a favor. Stop talking like this:

PS: We all can recognize by your attire that you are neato, and secretly know that you're very important! Now go get em sport! But refrain from inciting visions of the below in my head. I know something is going on there, I'm not sure what it is, and I don't really care either. KthxBYE!

This all leads me to my aforementioned promise in Chapter 1 that I would begin to discuss type A personalities and this of course is intrinsically linked with the elements of the Four D's. Oh shit, it was three. Okay, Drunkards makes an unofficial Four. To refresh, Denny's, Douchebags and Dipshits plus an additional Drunkard equals four. I was thinking that there is a large divergence in personalities on the East Coast to those anywhere else. I think that Manhattan specifically has an asshole magnet, or at least, when one crosses the city line, a huge stick is inserted up one's ass. This eventually leads to therapy. Of course, the habit of the Type A personality or Dipshit, or Douchebag is to talk about, (using various avenues of expression), how necessary it is to have them around, or in the Manhattan case...how the nature of the dipshittery and Type A-ology is an extraordinary facet of their ability to "survive," and achieve "greatness" in a sea of greatness.

Summary: I am specialer than you are!

Which brings me full circle back to Denny's and how I would much rather be seated at an establishment surrounded by drunkards and fuckups, versus being immersed in a steaming pile of overwrought shit-headery simultaneously listening to screaming babies or mothers offering their overly indulged 3 year old an unending list of suggestions from the ol' starbucks buffet.

You make me feel like this:

The Type A personality is a rather interesting phenomenon, as they are a contradictory concoction of low self esteem or fear of imagination coupled with extreme behaviors and "impressive" activities used to occupy themselves with thoughts of how splediforous they are.

Here they are, hanging out at the lodge in Vermont. He is probably talking about this awesome merger:

Or he is talking about how he did this, last weekend, not realizing that he should be talking to his therapist about how he cannot comprehend the void of our existence:

I'm just throwing this one in for amusement. I don't necessarily consider this a Type A personality example. I just think it's funny, and I hate crotch rockets. WHY oh WHY would you invent something that displays the ass crack of anyone prominently meanwhile drawing attention to it because of that sound barrier breaking ear-drum bursting buzz sawing music making that rips through the universe when one of these asshats decides they need to pump the gas in hopes that everyone in a 5 block radius runs from their homes and exclaims, "WOW! A MOTHERFUCKING CROTCHROCKET MOM, DAD, AUNT JUDY! IT'S FUCKING AWESOME!! I NEED TO BE ON THAT! OH BUT WAIT, I CAN'T EVEN SEE IT, IT'S GONE SO FAST!!"

On that note, I'm going to sign off. Next chapter will focus on more lighthearted issues, like abortion.

Title: LOVE SURGE

Chapter One

Today I was walking down the street, on my way to work, bypassing the usual Champion coffee stop for a latte to help fuel my trek across the bridge. Before getting to my observation, I shall lamely digress....the reason I walk the extra 15 minutes across the bridge is because I hate the bus. I loathe the B61, and anyone that knows me well, has been tortured by my texts and soliloquies expounding upon the loathsome nature of the f'ing B61. I hate it, and it hates me back. We share the same mutual negligence with one another. So, I will brave the windy torrent and constant barrage of honking that defines the bridge I walk across, (name to be withheld to discourage stalking), primarily to avoid the bus.

I hate you:

You are like this:

Minus the:

Plus this:

Edna St. Vincent Millay is quoted as saying, "I love humanity, I just hate people." I personally subscribe to this stance because I wonder consistently why people are so stupid and predictable, and I'm sure that I'm also guilty of being stupid and predictable. So...as of late, I've been avoiding all contact with people, or at least not partaking in conversation, OR simply relying upon a gamut of ridiculous statements to keep things interesting. The guilt I feel for hating people is nothing in comparison to the pain I experience while being around them. But this way, I do not have to struggle with the constant existential paradox of myself versus everyone else, and can instead selfishly indulge in my own hateful observations.

So, as I was walking this morning I saw this guy that had this blue jacket on with faux fur trim:

It was somewhat shorter than this one, and the faux fur was black. The dude wearing the jacket had on black pants and black shoes. He also had on those large ear muff head phones. He had a shaggy black short beard, black hair, and large black rimmed glasses. If this sounds familiar, it's because....it is. The term "Hipster" may come to mind, but this is one example of several differing varieties. This is probably the much more subtle toned personality of hipsters, and there's a good chance he still listens to cassette tapes.

He is like the guy on the right:

Minus the:

Plus the:

and the:

Plus the:

The end.

Tomorrow's edition:

Type A personalities: On the list of "things to do before I die," getting ostracized by Jensville shall be one of them.